随便写(二) "呼吸"

呼吸

身体的力量源自吸气..呼气...吸气..呼气...
没有呼吸...就没有生命

小孩从母亲肚子挤出来了...
第一学会的是吸气..呼气...第二才是哭 (应该是两者同步..哈哈!!)

爬山时满脸通红... 脚很累...到达山顶...第一个反应
是很自然的深呼吸...那空气吸进身体...像饿了要吃一样
才发现原来是最基本的养分

哭了急了的时候..呼吸变得混乱
有时甚至弄到鼻子塞了... 难受得很
要跟自己说... 慢慢的调整...
来,一,二,三...吸气..呼气...

记得中学上台表演前紧张了
不记得是谁教我
先把手捻住鼻子十几秒
然后跟着便会很自然的来几个深呼吸
心跳便能减慢一点

yoga老师说,做完一个动作.
觉得很累,呼吸很急了
做下一个动作之前
尝试把呼吸调慢
吸气用几秒,而吐气甚至要更长几秒
这样心跳便会慢下来
力气也会找回来,心情也不会那么急

原来每天也在呼吸
很多时侯却忘了.. 意识跟身体变得没有交流了...

要再意识到自己的呼吸,

哎!今天呼吸的感觉是怎么样的啊?
一早起来,先来个深呼吸
帮意识和身体发电吧...

(哈哈...不知道自己在写什么....哈哈....)

可能是: celebration of our breath!

随便想想

有没有想过

有没有想过关于”一个人”的事情
从少就觉得人一出生的时候本来就是就是一个一个独立的个体…
每个人,都是一个人..来的时候一个,走的时候也是一个…

于是,在生活的点滴里

喜欢的时候叫它叫”独处”
觉得没意思了,把它唤作 ”虚空”
享受的时候它叫 “自由”
觉得受委屈的时候便称呼为”孤独”
带点骄傲的时候它变了”潇洒”
害怕情感没人交流的时候就落得 “寂寞”

太阳,时间,皮肤,什么都没有变
为什么却像钟摆,没间段的在两种极端摇晃
那么两边那中间的.
到底是什么..

每天往山上放羊的小孩
水底里的海龜
校园池塘的荷花
他们把答案告诉了我

京都小店

京都的传统小店
是卖用树枝做的檫的物品..不同造型不同用途
有小巧的小饰柜
还有是前铺后居的..

叶

树枝看着水里的叶子

青红

紅葉快全掉下來
十二月中的京都
下著雨,有點冷
陽光轉眼不見了
拐過那片紅色,來到這片青綠色的前面
吸收了雨水,像一片海洋
隱隱約約感到底下那水流動着的力量
但只聽到青綠色凝結的
一片寧靜海

生活场所

待续...

一夢

到朋友家探訪,很舒服的一個小地方.
坐在沙發上,有幾條小蜥蜴跑到前面的矮臺上.
我的思想中斷了,
眼睛看著他們
突然一隻很大的蜥蜴爬到我的大腿上
他看著我.我看著他.他好像才發現自己爬到不知道是誰的身上
好像比我更驚訝更害怕
在我來不及反應的時候,他轉眼就逃跑了
其他小的..也逃跑了

夢醒來…
感覺好奇怪
大腿還記得他爬上來的重量

後知後覺

昨天在學校的路上碰到B
他不是正在Chicago讀PhD嗎?
原來他只是回來香港幾天參加會議
我們在講那個art project 不斷延遲的事情
B突然很自然的說..
“A這幾個月也不可以啦.她的小孩兩個禮拜要出來了..”
我怔住了…Ａ a a a a…？生小孩？
(吓!　我不知道啊？….)
的確是好五個月沒見過A,但是我也和她MSN,SMS和通過電話..
甚至有幾次相約，但是後來總是其中一方爽約趕不上
然後我開始大笑．．
我問Ｂ，是真的嗎？你不是在講笑
他還說，你怎麼會不知道的？
哈哈哈．．我真是後知後覺．．我是怎麼做朋友的．．
幸好孩子還沒出來
要不然更後知後覺更好笑…
真的是替Ａ很開心
趕快打電話給大肚婆
她也不為意我不知道…哈哈哈…我們都笑了
都是保持平常心好…
今天終於約她吃午飯了…

Taken by Anja and Jules

There is Sherap, father, mother, sister-in-law, brother, nephew.....

Beautiful people...

school update

Here are some fresh photos taken by Jules and Anja last weekend. I met them last night in HK, had dinner with them.

They went to Labrang and visited Sherap's grassland hometown in Choni (Zhuoni county), about 5 hours drive from Labrang.

They had a look at the school building and they said it looks good! There is no chair and table at the moment, they will take the old furniture from the old school room up on the mountain. School shall starts after golden week holiday.

最近同一时间在读藏族作家唯色的三本书:殺劫;西藏记忆;名为西藏的诗.

认识了二十多年的朋友生日,借了她的生日蛋糕,靠变站作状许愿了...

Grassland School progress report no.2

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Following a phone conversation with Sherap (Xizhu) yesterday, please be noted that "Phase 1" of the grassland school construction at Kajiacun village has been completed.

Now the main school building is up and running. This single building includes 2 class rooms, 2 bedrooms for teachers and 1 bedroom for visitor. The next phase (in which fund raising is still in progress) will include the ground work for the playground, playground facilities, as well as fencing wall for the school premises.

There is now 1 teacher sent by the county government and 33 students all together starting from grade 1 level. Sherap is in the process of applying for one more teacher to be sent by the county government.

Some Dutch friends are now visiting Sherap at Labrang. They are planning to visit the school this Thursday (5 Oct). I am looking forward to chat with them when they stop by Hong Kong late next week.

隨筆

早上醒來醒去,總是醒不過來,
做了一個很忙碌的夢,在小街走來走去,
上落樓梯,穿過一扇木門,在公園坐下來了
在咖啡室碰到不太熟識的朋友,跟朋友的女朋友自我介紹了一番,也沒有管他們要不要聽, 好奇怪啊..
在身旁有一個人,但是看不見,陪著我在小巷子裏走來走去,那把聲音叫我去這一邊,去那一邊,叫那個人,不如做這件事.但是連在做夢中的我也感覺眼皮乏力,睜不開眼睛, 睜開了眼睛也對不到焦點…是很努力,我很想回答,很想被理解. 但是畢竟是太累了,那是一種身不由自己的感覺…你有沒有試過這樣的感覺

….

安靜的星期六下午是個下雨天
直到早上.已經享受了好一陣子放晴的日子.
幾個小時之前姐姐還在電話那邊問我那個沙灘有沒有更衣洗澡的設備

…..

建築-城市-歷史-經歷-記憶
從前有一個外來人把他多年的經歷,事情和當地歷史寫下來,
讀過後, 感到若要真正認識一個城市,去瞭解他/她建築,那是從養份開始的,
是一層一層的,像在剝洋蔥,用自己的手一片一片拿著,放下,看下去
原來沒有一個中心,沒有總結,沒有最終目的真理…
所有的故事,點滴,和片片的真實, 已經建立在那不斷變化的社會層面上
是在人物,角色,街道,房間上,互相不斷的交錯,成為一片一片的實體,載著記憶,故事
四年前到過那裏旅遊
現在才開始感到有可能真正的去認識她

她叫拉薩...

Barnett, Robert, Lhasa: Streets with memories, New York, Columbia University Press, 2006.

mkw

最近周末的下午有空的时候总会跑到 k在工厂区 的 art studio坐坐
(其实那个art studio还有a 和 t的份儿,但每次也碰不到他们)
特别是不想到学校工作,但又不想待在家里看电视和半睡半醒的看书
其中k 和 w 必定会在弄她们自己的 art work exercise
而我就会坐在那个很舒服的黑色沙发上看书
难免也会小睡一会儿
这张所谓 art post polaroid, 算是一个新突破..哈哈

new toy - lamellaphone

Here is my new toy - lamellaphone (a kind of music instrument from Africa)




















Below is a photo taken from The Pitt Rivers Musuem at Oxford
http://www.prm.ox.ac.uk/














Description from Wikipedia:

Lamellaphone (also called "Lamellophone") describes any of a family of musical instruments. The name comes from the Latin root "lamella" for "plate", and the Greek root "phone" for "sound". The name derives from the way the sound is produced: the instrument has a series of thin plates, or "tongues", each of which is fixed at one end and has the other end free. When the musician depresses the free end of a plate with a finger, and then allows the finger to slip off, the released plate vibrates. A tongue may be plucked either from the top or from the bottom.

A large number of lamellaphones originate in Africa, where they are known under different names including "sanza", "kisanji", "likembe", "mbira", "mbila", and "kalimba". They play an important role in African Music. They were reported as early as the 16th century, but there is no doubt they have a much longer history. The Caribbean marimbula is also of this family.

London / Konigswinter

刚刚这两个星期到过欧洲两个地方
一个是开研究会议,另外一个去是看朋友
脑袋/身心都refresh了...

Artist Gonkar Gyatso

This is one of the Tibetan Artists I met from this Tibetan Study conference I recently attended.
His name is Gonkar Gyatso.
I particular like his new series.
Below show two of them that he has shown in his presentation.
His new series will be shown later this year in this gallery. Watch out for people who will be in London.

Galllery web site:
www.sweetteahouse.co.uk


Panda Politics





















partial view















Tibetan Idols

Grassland school progress

星期一晚上收到西珠的电话,说已经收到我们在香港筹到的经费了.
他说很感谢我在香港的朋友,
我说只要他能好好运用这毕(少少的)经费,
让学校建设工程顺利进行,那就是最好了.
[其实要完成整个工程还欠一些经费呢]
西珠说他第二天便会赶回老家,几天后要赶回寺里开学.

十一月的时候正打算去夏河看小活佛坐床仪式,到时候看看能否顺道去一躺草原.
看看这个学校的情况...

On Monday night, I received a phone call from Sherap, and said he's already received the money transfer I gathered from here. He said he was feeling so thankful and I reminded him that as long as he spends the (small amount) funding wisely , and enables the construction to go smoothly, that will be all he needs to do.
[actually funding is still running short to complete the whole constrcution of the school!]
Sherap said he will travel home the next day for the construction inspection as he would need to rush back to the monastery for the new classes which starts very soon.

In the coming November, there is a plan of visiting Labrang to see the enthroning ceremony of this new Rinpoche. If there is enough time, let's see whether a trip to the grassland school is possible...

letters continue

My letter to Sherap:

我会叫我的朋友把钱转给你那天之前和之后给你打电话的.
十一月的事情现在还不能决定.到时候再看看吧..
我的时间也可能会有点赶..

你也用功学习啊
不要被寺罚啊!

:)
美琪

[translation]

I will ask my friend to call you before he transfer the money to you.
Still not sure about the November visit plan, will update you when the time comes.
as my time is a bit tight.

well, you should also work hard!
Don't get punished by the monastery!

Maggie
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Sherap's reply:

好的,谢谢您美其姐,我会努力学习的您放心吧,我收后我要回家看看学校,爸说窗和门都做好了
我要过去看看.下个7月分在寺里开始学些东西.

保重;
西珠

[translation]

Sure, thanks Maggie, don't you worry, I will work hard. After I receive the money, I will need to go home to see the school. Dad said the window and the doors are all made. I need to go back and have a look. Next month (7th month under lunar calendar) there are some new learning in the monastery.

Take care
Sherap

Letters

"原来是牛羊..."
" Oh Is the Yak and mutton"



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My letter to Sherap:

西珠

记得把你工商银行的卡号在电邮发给我..
我那位在深圳工作的朋友要到下个星期才有时间帮我到深圳的工商银行把钱发给你.
希望这么的一些钱能帮到你们盖学校吧...

还有,围墙有必要吗? 是不是保安的因素?

美琪

Sherap

remmember to let me know your bank account no.
My friend who works in shenzhen can help me to transfer the money to you next week.
I hope the money can help your school construction...

Also, is the fencing wall necessary? is it for security purpose?

Maggie
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Sherap's reply:

您好!

美其姐!我的卡号是(中国工商银行夏河县支行,9XXXXXXXXXX 这样就可以了谢谢您
牛羊也会进来的,因为有了院墙一方面卫生二方面安全,暫时没办法这能等段时间才可以做起来.
今年十一月分的时候您能去就太好了,不过那时候气候太冷您也知道的,每年最好的气候是四月二十直
八月这时间是最好的.

保重;

西珠

How are you!

Maggie, here is my bank account no. (China gongshang bank... just like this.. thanks)
Yak and mutton would come in. So with the fencing wall, one reason is for hygiene, another is for safety, now cannot do much, so just need to wait for it to be built later then.
It will be great if you can come this November, but it's gonna be cold by then as you have already known. The best weather is usually from April to August.
August is the best.

Take care;

Sherap

Monk friend "Sherap"

Old post about Sherap, a monk friend from Labrang:
http://meikei.blogspot.com/2006_02_01_meikei_archive.html

在草原上兴建小学

我在拉卜楞寺认识的喇嘛朋友西珠正在他的草原老家兴建一所小学,好让村里的小孩不会失去上学的机会.

这是七月夏天草原的境况,村民正在把工地弄平,石头和砖都搬过来了. 草原的景色跟我上一次二月份去的时候真的是很大的分别. 那时候天地都是雪白一片.现在草地上布满小黄花.

他们还是很缺建筑材料的经费.如果您有兴趣给他们一点的帮助,请别忘了告诉我!多少也感谢万分啊!

The above photos show the latest progress of the school building project organized by my Labrang monk friend "Sherap" at his grassland hometown in July. The villagers have been working on leveling the site, as well as collecting stones from the near by area. Materials such as bricks have been transported to the site; however they are running out of financial help in buying all the necessary building material. If you may want to support his project, please contact Sherap or let me know. :-)

[Village views during winter/ 冬天的境况: http://meikei.blogspot.com/2006/04/blog-post_29.html ]

Below shows e-mail from Sherap 西珠 on 13.08.06:

您好! 美其姐!

真不好意思昨晚没回邮件,因为昨晚没电. 我刚刚看到了文件写的很好谢谢您.

在家乡那边弄地平的这些都是我自己找亲戚和朋友帮我的,第一次回家的时候他们都说弄地和木料还有石是头这些说帮我,到时就变了都没了.

现在这能靠亲戚和朋友们,而且砖也涨价了到那儿每个砖4角2分没想到这么贵现在有点难处,可是我不会放弃的一定要该起来让这些小孩得到点文化这就是我这辈子最大愿望.

保重; 西珠

Translation of the e-mail:

Hi, Maggie sis

Please excuse me for not replying your mail last night as the electricity was out. I have just seen the document you wrote about the school, thank you so much.

At the hometown works such as leveling of the site were all done by my relatives and friends. When I went home the first time, some villagers promised to help on the foundation works as well as gathering the timber, but everything have changed when I went back this time.

Now, I can only rely on relatives and friends, also the price of bricks has increased to 42cents each. I never thought it would be that expensive. Now there are some difficulties, but I won’t give up. I must get this school built so that the children here can be cultivated as this is my biggest life long wish.

Take care; Sherap

Location of Gunkanjima

Hashima Island (端島; meaning "Border Island"), commonly called Gunkanjima (軍艦島; meaning "Battleship Island") is one among 505 uninhabited islands in the Nagasaki Prefecture 長崎県, about 15 kilometers from Nagasaki 長崎市, itself.

"Gukanjima - View of an Abandoned Island"

軍艦島 Gukanjima __in Japan


远看像軍艦!!!!

其实"她"本身是一个大珊瑚瞧. 1810年因发现石油而成为一个开发的人工小岛. 直到1974年开发完毕,所有居民撤离...

就这样一直荒废.被遗忘了...

整个小岛的建设还在,甚至很多日常生活的物件, 像是时钟停顿了三十年..最近才有人去拍照..

看看照片很精彩..

















































2000















1970s



Off the westernmost coast of Japan, is an island called "Gunkanjima" that is hardly known even to the Japanese. Long ago, the island was nothing more than a small reef. Then in 1810, the chance discovery of coal drastically changed the fate of this reef. As reclamation began, people came to live here, and through coal mining the reef started to expand continuously. Befor long, the reef had grown into an artificial island of one kilometer (three quarters of a mile) in perimeter, with a population of 5300. Looming above the ocean, it appeared a concrete labyrinth of many-storied apartment houses and mining structures built closely together. Seen from the ocean, the silhouette of the island closely resembled a battleship - so, the island came to be called Gunkanjima, or Battleship island.

I was twenty-two when I first visited the island I had dreamed about ever since childhood. Much like a fortress built upon the sea, surrounded by high walls,the island possessed an air of a small kingdom, where its denizens boasted "There is nothing we don't have here." They were right. They did have everything within their miniature kingdom - except a cemetery. But, the irony of it was proven by the passag e of time. Already, the island had been doomed to turn into an enormous graveyard.

Eventually, the mines faced an end, and in 1974 the world's once most densely populated island become totally deserted. The island, after all its inhabitants departed leaving behind their belongings, became an empty shell of a city where all its peopl disappeared overnight, as if by some mysterious act of God...

excerpt from web site: http://www.ne.jp/asahi/saiga/yuji/gallary/gunsu/g-text-e.html

more photos from web site: http://www.ne.jp/asahi/saiga/yuji/gallary/menu-e.html

after typhoon

2 times X grassland village

same shots- 2 times

2006_Feb

2006_July

This is a grassland village that I visited in february in southern Gansu near my research site. It's the home town of my monk friend from Labrang monastery. The villagers are building a new (first) primary school at the grassland now. He just sent me some photos taken last month (July). And here comes an almost identical shots. What a big difference. I wished I could go ther now and pitch a tent for summer picnic.

clear water

"Clear water bay-bay 01" 's water is really much clearer than Shek O's water..
a nice beach if you are looking for a real swim in clear water
:-)

Shek O's Sophie

認識了Sophie很久了.

[打電話是這樣叫她: Sop-Pphiee 把尾音拉長 或叫她 Soph]

我們一起在墨兒本讀大學.是已經認識了十幾年了好友.由當初Year 1那時戰戰兢兢對自己,還有自己的英語能力沒什麼自信,到後來我們一起在巴黎和Amsterdam當背包客, 還有和她與其他同學去了幾趟那個讓我學懂騎單車是什麼一回事十天單車團 (Great Victorian bike ride),當然還有很多很多其他的..

S的個性很強,也不是一般的Aussie,可能是因為她有兒時在法國長大的經歷,還有她的一半東歐(Cezh)的血統吧.

我們不是常常見面聊天的.但每過一陣子,我們便會聊天,也會是比較深入交心的談話.
S幾天前來了香港住了幾天, 下一站是芬蘭的Alvar Alto conference.

上一次S來香港的時候正好是四年前,也正是世界盃時期.那時的我和我身邊的人和事跟現在的已經有些不同了.

期望下一次再見到她時,我兩再一次互相說說笑笑大家萬變的狀況…

image speaks for itself

Listening "double vie" on a summer full moon night

Have only watched "The Double Life of Veronika" 兩生花 on vedio 10 years ago. It's gonna be quite an experience watching it in theatre (from the 1st row) tomorrow night. As it has always been on my list of favourite, both the film and the music.

Film festival web site
http://bc.cinema.com.hk/adhoc/krzysztof_kieslowski/movie_double.html

Film festival trailer
http://bc.cinema.com.hk/adhoc/krzysztof_kieslowski/festival.html

The music is very good too.
The soundtrack of Kieslowski's film "The Double Life of Veronika"
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00000G5VW/104-2736949-3228763?v=glance&n=5174

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The Double Life of Veronique
La Double Vie de Veronique

1991-France/Poland-Romantic Drama/Psychological DramaN.Y. Times Review by Caryn James

PLOT DESCRIPTION

The Double Life of Véronique is the story of two young women who are -- in some mysterious and irresolvable way -- the same woman leading two different yet interconnected lives. Those familiar with Polish director Krzysztof Kieslowski's later "Three Colors" trilogy of Blue, White, and Red will recognize his fascination with accidental happenings and chance encounters, as well as Irène Jacob (from Red) whose performance as both Veronika and Veronique won the 1991 Cannes Film Festival award for best actress. Veronika and Véronique are born on the same day in 1966, one in Poland, the other in France. They grow up separately, unaware of each other's existence, but with the vague and rarely expressed feeling that they are "not alone." The story begins in Poland, where Veronika (like Véronique) is a talented vocalist and music student who wins a prestigious singing competition and is given the chance to perform with a local symphony. On the night of the concert, while singing a duet onstage, Veronika loses consciousness and dies. Véronique is emotionally wounded by the loss of her double and decides to end her singing career. The film charts the effect of Veronika's death on Véronique and on her dispassionate and unsatisfying relationships with men, especially her father. She is led to puppeteer and children's book author Alexandre Fabbri (Philippe Volter), whose puppet shows and stories are dramatic variants on her own mysterious problem. While looking through photographs of Véronique's trip to Poland, Fabbri discovers a picture of Veronika walking through a student demonstration in Kracow. He shows the picture to Véronique, who intuits the significance of Veronika's perfect likeness to herself. ~ Anthony Reed, All Movie Guide

出三峽

這兩天在讀朋友W給我介紹的[出三峽記].她把書借給我的時候估計沒有錯.我真的很喜歡這本書,而且把書一早還給她,原因是看到有一本擱在學校書店的書架上, 沒多想便把書買下來了.

作者晉永權現工作於<<中國青年報>>,於這五年內,走訪因為興建三峽水壩工程而被政府搬遷的居民.書內不只是圖片,而且有一個一個移民背後的故事.幸好作者也沒有過于煽情.而是從基層[grass root]反映出一個ground situation的狀態. 讓讀者去認識一些代表了十六萬三峽移民戶的生活歷史. 其中牽動著:社會,宗族,家庭,集體記憶…

因為還沒讀完.過幾天讓腦袋好好清理.再多寫點…


[出三峽記]
作者晉永權
北京三聯書店出版 2006年










Have been reading this Chinese book called出三峽記 chu sanxai ji [Noted on Emigration from the Three Gorges] the last two days. It was recommended by my friend W. Her guess was right when she lent it to me that I would love it so much. At the end I returned the book to her the next day as I found one selling at the university book store. I’ve got to have my own copy.

The author currently works at the中國青年報Chinese Youth News. In the past five years, he had visited towns and villages at the three gorges where they will be flooded because of the super dam project. He has met different people throughout his visits. In the book, there are not just photos but also one after one story of these emigrants. Fortunate enough, the author wasn’t a sensationalist. He shows an honest voice to describe these emigrants from a grass root level. The numbers of stories being told here enable the readers to get closer to these one hundred and sixty thousands emigrants, about their living history. And then it’s all about society, family lineage, home, and collective memory.

Still got half of the book to be finished shall drop a few more words later.

Matthew Barney's Drawing Restraint 9

The core idea is the relationship between self-imposed resistance and creativity, a theme it symbolically tracks through the construction and transformation of a vast sculpture of liquid Vaseline, called “The Field”, which is molded, poured, bisected and reformed on the deck of the ship over the course of the film.

Trailer of the documentary film on the making of "Drawing Restraint 9"
http://youtube.com/watch?v=wN3TohDaoCQ

Bjork's music for the film:
http://unit.bjork.com/specials/dr9/

reviews include trailer of the film "Drawing Restraint 9":
http://www.boston.com/movies/display?display=movie&id=8782

more info on Barney's Drawing Restraint series:
http://www.drawingrestraint.net/

The Bandquet 夜宴

[夜宴]

凶煞之夜，厉帝大摆贺宴。婉后献上了毒酒，青女献上了歌舞。他的谋臣，觊觎着王位，静观其变。这座旷世的宫廷里，权力与欲望的争夺已然拉开序幕。

showing this September! should be a great film!




























http://www3.cinema.com.hk/revamp/html/list_detail.php?lang=c&movie_id=2508
http://ent.sina.com.cn/f/thebanquet/index.shtml

Labrang monastery 拉卜楞寺 from above

Just found this from google earth today, the search engine doesn't regonise any place name in China except beijing, so, not even Lanzhou.
Playing detective, it took us awhile to find Lanzhou first through Qinghai Lake (the big lake appear on the China map), then we traced the river and another "water hole" the Liu Jia Xia (lake) all the way down south.
At the end we arrived this valley and from a first glance, I knew that's it. It's the Labrang I have come to known for the last 3 years.
Bravo!! To my collegue W, who have helped me on this operation!

me and you and eveyone we know

me and you and eveyone we know 你，我，他她他

What a poetic film about contemporary little people in the contemporary world!
No drama, no hero...they are real people far from perfecto...
Is a film that I enjoy every moments. Is a kind of warmth feeling that make you feel very happy afterwards.
Do watch it on big screen if there is chance.

http://www.meandyoumovie.com/
http://www3.cinema.com.hk/revamp/html/list_detail.php?lang=c&movie_id=2466